I notice something happening lately, in fact it wasn't lately but more like almost a year ago. My photo quality started to deteriorate tremendously and at an alarming rate. It is as if my feel for it had died. Did it ? What happen ? I don't even know myself. I have a hunch though. My photography time have been severely limited these day. Could have been my incapacitating work load at work. Could it be the mindless comparison from fellow photographer about how whore-y their gear is ? Or could it be the depression I'm having of not achieving anything as I turn 30 ? Was it because I sold my first love the 400D away ? I miss using a battery grip to be honest. I also miss using that kit lens everyone so hate. I manage to capture some of my best photo ever with that plastic wonder. Then there is that longer range lens of 55-250mm. Man, that lens was the best when it comes to catching people's candid expression. Was it because I no longer have an external flash ? Did I lost my way in the form of my favorite photography type. I love street and landscape but with no time going to the street, there is no street photo. By the time I was free (weekend), the street already empty. Landscape ? It's been a while since I last went into remote places already. Kukuot ? miss that place a lot. Sabah ? still long way to wait. Macau ? No more direct flight and bo lui also. To be fair, I never really did own a GND Filter before, I think i really should get one, if i was really serious about landscape photography.
Seems to me that, the more technique I learn, the worsen I get in photography. Actually, I really have not much time brushing up on the skills lately. Normally i would have started planning where and what to do by Wednesday. I don't know why or how, but I've been unable to catch up on the what date is it today ? There too much negativity faced everyday. So much burden on my shoulder until I'm just too tired by the time weekend come. Only time will tell how or where all of this will lead me. Hobbyist or retired ?
Seems to me that, the more technique I learn, the worsen I get in photography. Actually, I really have not much time brushing up on the skills lately. Normally i would have started planning where and what to do by Wednesday. I don't know why or how, but I've been unable to catch up on the what date is it today ? There too much negativity faced everyday. So much burden on my shoulder until I'm just too tired by the time weekend come. Only time will tell how or where all of this will lead me. Hobbyist or retired ?
